The Vintage Soul is a Very Gentle Soul

Monday, April 30, 2012

Seven Weeks

Just 7 weeks  ..  from diagnosis till death.

Not nearly enough time for 'good-bye'.

A most hard-fought battle, his bravery unmatched ...
  it was, sadly, a battle not to be won.

       ~

And now 7 months have passed since My Love has gone.

My world still spinning, my heart far far far-removed from this blog  ...   I have finally sensed an ever-so-small measure of strength to sign-on, if only momentarily  ...   if only to write the unspeakable.   The unthinkable.   The unbearable. 

If only to let you know I am here.  

If only to ask for strength. 

Thoughts of healing.   Thoughts of strength.

I must gather my strength.

To carry on.   On into my unknown.  

Solo.


In Memory of Mark
8.6.57  ~  9.30.11

I Miss You So


17 comments:

  1. I'm so very sorry to learn of your loss.
    My husband died suddenly in 1994, and I know it's a heartache beyond words.
    Please know that it won't always hurt this badly.
    (((((hugs)))))
    ~Becca~

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  2. Oh my dear friend I am so so sorry for your loss. I can only imagine how lost you must feel. I have always felt that I would not make it without my husband. But in my heart I know I would, it would just be so so hard. I send you comfort, I send you roses, and all that is good on this earth to carry you on. We are fragile and I know your heart aches. I will whisper prayers for you. ((hug)) gently, Kerrie

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  3. I wish you strength, healing & comfort. So very sorry for the loss. Hope the wonderful memories you have bring you comfort. Blessings to you.

    Robin

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  4. I am so deeply sorry. My thoughts are with you.
    Faye

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  5. Oh Kim...I am so sorry for your loss. I have thought of you so often. Sending you a hug and please know, you are in my thoughts and prayers. I am only an email away.
    Take care,
    Sandi

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  6. Dear Kim, I am so so sorry for your loss. I know of the pain you are feeling. It takes time to heal, and I know at this time it feels like the pain will never ease. Your memories will keep you going, and your unending love will see you through. Know that my prayers are with you, and Mark is at your side. With deepest sympathy,
    Laurie

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  7. I'm so sorry for your loss. I will pray for you to have much strength in this.

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  8. I'm so sorry for your loss, I am sure he would want you to think and remember him, but yet to live a happy and healthy life, go on and enjoy life but hold on tight to the love and memories you have from you sole mate. Hugs Mary

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  9. We are strangers. I am very sorry to know that you have been hurting. Your post has touched me deeply and will make me count my blessings. Please know I will say prayers for you to have strength and find joy and happiness even though the days may still seem dark. Hugs - Lori

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  10. Oh friend, I wish you were close for a hug...I feel your pain. Even though my husband and I had parted ways, his sudden death was a crushing blow for me. I still think of him often, 3 years later and wonder if things could have been better for us. But time does heal all and now you will move forward the strong woman you have become and better knowing that you once had a life friend and experienced the love.

    Be well, you will be in my constant thoughts!

    Sharon

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  11. seven months, not long enough to heal. it sometimes takes a life time. i am sorry for your
    loss. words are never enough, and you don't know me at all, but i am truly sorry.
    in fondest of thoughts for you,
    Tilda

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  12. Dear Kim,I dont know you and this is the first time I have ever come across your blog and it brought me to tears. We live in a harsh world but the ones we love keep us going. The thought of losing the love of your life is not somthing we should ever think of or experience. Just know my heart goes out to you and you are loved by many people in many places. Stay strong,have faith and pray. Sending you love and prayers.

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  13. You know you are loved...........
    And you know I am ever so grateful you found the strength to write this post......

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  14. Oh Dear Kim . . . I have come here so often with thoughts of you. I came today and I share your heart and tears! I can't even imagine losing the love of your life in 7 short weeks. You are right . . . that is not enough time to say goodbye. We each heal in our own time and our own way. I pray that God will give you the amount of strength you need to get through each day and that His love will shine upon you. Hold onto your precious memories that you have of Mark. Those memories are yours and nobody can take those from you. I will keep you in my heart and in my prayers. Sending you a hug! Saralee

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  15. My heart goes out to you and has been since you last wrote to say your husband was so ill. I have been watching and sincerely hoped you would return some day. All of us who followed your beautiful blog feel a sort of closeness to you and I have been where you are now. I do understand. Please accept my sincere heartfelt sympathy. Hold on to your wonderful memories. So many people will never experience what you had. Cherish the memories.

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  16. My Sweet Friend Kim,
    I can't express how sad I feel for you. You have been on my mind so much over the years, and Mark too.I remember the last time I ran into both of you.....such a sweet, loving, beautiful husband and wife.
    I could never get over the fact that I also married a "Mark Thomas".....that was just such a strange thing to discover. I have followed you, your blog and all the sweetness you have to offer. I have always found you a comforting friend with such a gentle spirit and kind heart. I treasure all the goodies that I have ever purchased from you that you have so delicately taken care of and shared. I love them all. Please remember that you are in my thoughts and my prayers always.

    Laurie Northam

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  17. Sending you prayers & hugs. Please accept you my heartfelft sympathy. You are missed and loved in blogland.

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thank you for your kind thoughts!